the reason why i quit everything n why i left tis world without sign when i done everything =)

the reason why i quit everything =)
is bcoz of she find a perfect match..
is the day i quit online..
reason..
i gave wat she wan in her attire life =)
she needs me.. i done =)
she loves me.. i done 2 =)
she ask me don leave her at her sides.. i make it everytime =)
she wan me til end of her life.. i can make it in solo-ing
why.. from secondary 2 i met her n gone at half months..
at secondary 3.. she appear back and find me..
bring back my heart and everything..
she passed..
but.. 2 years later.. sad things comes around me
leave me without any sign
any shadows of her
none voice
n letters from her
day by day i send 2 her all my gd thgs n bad thgs happen on me
but.. no sign.. no reply.. none

the day tat i leave this world..
is because of she had married n make a family stairs =)

i understand that loves cant force..
but when i c her pictures...
online at msn...
facebook..
or skype..
i cant stand wna talk wif her..
she rly take away my heart and keep it
but now.. no more..
i feel like watching this place... whr i am
change
time past very fast in here..
she also always said..
im a good guy who she nvr ever met..
but thg changed in 2 years

reason why.. i hate my self so much...!~
bcoz i cant even protect her..
our journey are far..
2 years coupling.. never met
never even make couple thgs
like example
dating..
but why the love she gaves me r deep than i thought?
boys would'nt cry..
but i sob-ing...
tears came out from my eyes rapidly..
when i thg about her
i even changed everything..
life..
laugh like a normal guy..
make my self happy =)
i tried..
but..
it onli give me sadness..
emo-ing in my life..
earth...
world...
heaven or hell...
have L.O.V.E tis words..
but.. it just words..
it won't happen between humans
she used knife stab in my heart as deeply as she can =)
but when she pull out the knife..
blood came out just like water at mountain..
it was more pain..
than everything that hit us..

in my life..
it's not incomplete at all..
my dream had ended..
the good of me..
the funny of me..
it's gone..

i'm always alone in my house..
just like jail.
no more freedom either =')

the first day us until v nvr contact... 2 months i finally understand something also.. abt my life =')

first day we met.. at facebook..
n play sdo-x wif each other
first time we met face 2 face.. is at mc donald..
second time.. is i bring ue to bank for reload money to some1
third time.. is bring u out n eat..
forth time.. we go red box wif 2 of my frens n ur fren =) n went to my home for chat while let u online at my pc =)
but... when the first day of spm.. v accident..
from tat time i thinking until today.. 5/1/2011 (wednesday 4.00am)
i finally think.. that we cant love each other coz of we r not match =)
life changed since we not contact while i stay here
ever since u blame on me everything.. but.. idk hw 2 solve these problems..
suicide my self coz of ue..?
or.. keep moody-ing everyday..?
i very hope tat.. time could go back as i wish..
after everything.. i felt like my body.. is no longer human
just like a demon.. or watever...
but love... it changed everything =')
tears... drop from my eyes when i thk of our happiness thk i ever make for ue coz of i wna prove tat ILY.. bt ended in 1 month like tat...
no shadows.. no sign of u.. none talk.. n none face 2 face

no.. more.. fate.. on .. us..

and im so sry tat i hurt u
sry tat i felt through
sry tat i was falling in love wif u =')
sry tat it came true
and sry it does'nt turn back time =')

4 gals waiting me...
slowly..
1 by 1...
finally gone.. =')
single...
lonely...
none smile face on me...
happiness..
onli emo on my face..

feel like stucking on the wrong path...
walk 2 left...? or right..?
demon world...? or angel world...?
reaper...? or sword...?
black wing...? or white wing...?
none...
im stuck at the middle of the road...
people always said.. im a good guy.. nice guy..
but for me.. it's onli a story.. or simply said..
no1 understand wat i wan..
wat i wan is.. people make me happy..
but... family makes my life bcome more and more tired...

=')